I thought I was going to to die

So despite my concerns about everything else (What are people going to think...what if it is a false alarm...what if it is real and I sorta knew...) I let my girlfriend know and talked about going to the urgent care clinic after stopping at the house. She said to go right away and that she would meet me.

I worried a little about driving, hoping she would take the same route and not find me in a ditch.

Going to the clinic, see the worried look on the faces of the clinic staff, hearing a lot of confusion, riding in the back seat of the ambulance, heading into the Emergency Room, and waiting and waiting...

The waiting kills you. Whether waiting in bed, waiting for your roomate to stop coughing, waiting for the night to be over, waiting to go to bed, waiting for them to stick another needle in you, waiting in a wheelchair is probably worse.

You think about missing people and what it would be like if you were actually gone.

You guys showed up and were great supportive, it was cute when my youngest said "Dad did you know I scored three goals on Saturday..." and I replied "yes I was at the game." and my daughter was solely focused on how she was going to get me to pay for her cell phone and my oldest talked about his new found fascination with needles andhis new piercings.

You acted like young adults, keeping thngs light but not afraid to have emotions. I appreciated the hugs...yes I noticed and your love at a most incovenient time.